Monday, December 29, 2008

cuz you love me

I'm stuck in a limelight of hate
is it really a
predestined fate
or is it that your love
your love
your love is all i can take

im stuck in a limelight of hate
baby come love me
baby please stay

i close my eyes your all i see
i close my eyes and you are holding me
i hate it i hate it cuz you love me

i'm stuck in a limelight of hate
is it really a
predestined fate
some lights and a flash
a boy
and he grabs me

but you are always there protecting me
a smile
to let me be

i hate it i hate it cuz you love me
i hate it i hate it cuz you love me
cuz all i can think or do is love you back baby

Thursday, December 25, 2008

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Lulliby

The sun rises high and it lights up the sky
something is there
i can feel it in the warmth by my side
you show me what it's like
and now i am sure to be stuck in your life

Now i am lost in your eyes
this is why i keep quiet
when you say i love you
boy, know, that i love you too
catch my breath
help me breathe
cuz you take it away from me...
when you smile

This isn't just a lulliby
and now i can see why
you are there to hold my hand
and you are there to help me stand
come take me to a place
come take me to your favorite space
you have my heart
now reel it in
let's see what kind of love story
we can put ourselves in

Now i am lost in your eyes
this is why i keep quiet
when you say i love you
boy, know, that i love you too
catch my breath
help me breathe
cuz you take it away from me...
when you smile

I wish i could just freeze time
when one moment i could cry
and the next i would seem fine
water reflects everything
hold it in your hand
and you have the world
you are in my heart
and i look in
the reflection i see
why its your light

now i am lost in your eyes
this is why i keep quiet
when you say i love you
boy, know, that i love you too
catch my breath
help me breathe
cuz you take it away from me...
when you smile

i write a page
and you write a page
and together
we will write a story
not just another lulliby...

Bells ring

Goin to a slum old place
lookin at a forgotten face
their eyes reflect what's inside
and the air alone lets out their cry
pull me out pull me out
hold me up and keep me out
it's dark in there
and i got scared
it's a shiny thing
that favored bling
but when the greedy go deep
the lights not seen
and they see the bell
but it doesn't ring
the mounds they have don't mean a thing
it's what they think is everything
he gave em a heart to pull those forgotten faces out
but here they are
more than they need
here they are in their fame's greed
and unfortunate souls stuck in a love drought.

your gifted with it so you may not realize
your gifted with it so you may not see as i
do you know that some people idolize
do you know that some people cry their eyes
out in the dark they wanna know
they wanna know
what it's like
your gifted life.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

a story. a story told. a story told right.


Tears.

The silent kind streaming down my face.

Tears.

Hit the grownd on empty space.

Take my hand,

come and see.

You

take my hand and let me lead.

I'd show you what has hurt me,

I'd take you there and let you see.


She's beautiful.

You can see it in her eyes.

You can tell it's there,

but

her soul is trapped inside.

The feeling she is scared,

and

something else is there.

Holdong her curiosity back,

you only see colors of

fear.


I want to help her.

she's got a gift,

but

a heavy heart i cant seem to lift.

her confiddence is blown,

her love?

not shown.

The only one to save her

now...

the only one to show her

how...

is me.

i am the one only one who can teach her to

believe.

for i am the one who can see inside.


Lift her heart,

let the colors fly.

break it open,

stop her cry.

let it go,

don't wait and see.

relax it's time,

just let it be.


More tears.

The silent kind streaming down my face.

Tears.

Hit the ground on empty space.

take my hand,

come and see.

You

take my hand and let me lead.

i'd show you what has helped me,

i'd take you there and let you see.


Look in the morror.

It's you.

just standing next to me.


There is only one of you,

and

there is only one of me.

but see when we are together,

we can be we.


...go team...

Monday, November 10, 2008

Jordan.

A sunflower.
In a field of gray.
Shes beautiful when she opens her eyes and smiles that way.
Your the light that makes her shine,
your kiss on her is like holding time.
Hold her close hold her tight,
let her embrace your muscle's might.
She feels safe in those arms.
Even in a cold and dark stormy night.
She'll want to dance,
jut dance with you.
Maybe whisper in your ear...
let's dance the night through.
Then fall asleep cuddled up next to you.
Shes thinking.
Shes thinking about you.

I already miss you.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

one


There is only one of you.


And there will only ever be one of you.


So make it the best you.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

coach


Every day i learn something more.

Some days not so much,

some days more than ever before.

Today i learned how three words can mean so much.

Simply saying im sorry could be all they are looking for.

Nobody is perfect,

we all make mistakes,

we don't know everything,

and at times we all break.

But having the morals to say im sorry

that's something worth fighting for.

A combination not to be taken for granted.

Can but a 15 year old be more mature than an adult?

An adult with their whole life to have learned something more.

Yes, a dissapointent.

Im Sorry.

So easy, but again one of the hardest things.

But happiness those hard things do bring.


Be humble,

then you might not see them all quiet and cry.

(message to someone i once believed in)

Saturday, October 11, 2008

so i was reading through the "about me" part on some of my friends facebook accounts.
u know... just to see what they wrote.
and i came across one that simply said,
"its not all about me."
they wrote nothing about themself,
but amazingly it said everything about them.
everything that is important in a person.
what do you have when you loose your things, your pride, maybe your talent in a sport...nothing.
but if your character has the "its not about me"
you still have everything.
everything that is important.

there was this boy.
his whole life was centered around football.
division 1 football he says.
thats my life, its everything.
all i want to do is play division 1 football.
he got really good at it, it is pretty much his life,
always bragging about how good he is.
his knee blows out.
life, for him,
stopped.
he thought he had lost everything,
couldnt persue what he wanted, what he thought was truly everything.
a game.
he became depressed.
thought everything was all about him.
he started failing his classes, and wasnt going to make it.
so my theology teacher...
he knows its not all about him.
he calles up the boy's mother.
and asks if he can take the boy somewhere, and gets her permisson.
so the teacher takes the boy, in his car.
drives him to the childrens hospital.
just walks through.
looking,
at all of the smiling faces of children fighting for their life.
they know its not all about them.
they know they still have everything,
smiling, while fighting for their life.
the boy and the teacher just looking in...
room to room
smile after smile.
then the teacher asks.
boy, now is your life over,
now do u see
now do you know
"its not all about you"
the boy stops, looks the teacher in the eye,
and says wow.. no. its not all about me.
and he turned his life around.

true story.



character. it counts.

Friday, October 3, 2008

:)


GO FOR IT.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

"said too much but really not enough"

So you make a promise.
And on top of that promise another promise,
too keep that promise.
I'll always love you.
I'll love you when the light shines through.
I'll love you when you start to cry.
I'll be there for you.
You are my life.
Happy tears I'll then turn and cry.
No written words can explain what you are.
No distance from you is ever too far.
You are my child,
I am here for you
....momma, I LOVE YOU TOO.

Baby your smile,
it keeps my heart with you.
Look and there it is,
always a part of you.
Every raindrop that falls from the sky,
is me thinking of you.
Every bird that sings is my happiness towards you too.
Take this ring,
my promise again.
I'll hold you tight,
kiss you light.
And take care of you
....handsome boy, I LOVE YOU TOO.

Hey!
I'll keep this promise,
be here for you.
Have fun with you.
Laugh harder with you.
Talk on the phone.
Ride my bike,
Sneak out of my home.
Pick you up.
Take you there.
Another memory for us to share
....best friends, I'M THERE FOR YOU TOO.

And the one who started it all.
Who gave us love,
love that is there,
never to fall....I LOVE YOU TOO.

too often i go through my life taking things for granted. Taking love for granted, taking happiness for granted, taking friends and family for granted, taking good times for granted. i don't stop to say i love you, to say i am here for you, and to say thank you. sometimes there is only one chance, then a chance passed up, a chance lost. i cant tell how to live your life, but how to love you life? what is happiness and love if it is not cherished? one and one, that makes two. two and some more grows to be a few. it's like happiness and love. keep it alive. it'll come for you, then grow too.
it goes. it just works.
because i love you.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Everything

Everything seems to come and go.
Things and life flash through and then go...
Come and go like winter snow.
Winter snow.
Watching the flakes as they fall to the earth
Quiet and calm
staring, smiling at her.
Beautiful though is the abscence of knowing,
the exact time of the quiet snow's coming.
Blanketing the earth,
with comfort and knowing,
the snow is there,
it;s there and cares.

though now it's going
melting away
to come another day
it is now lost, all things must,
on the heart is a pricely cost, but
come it will
come it will
again it will come,
it does know the hearts in need,
its comfort will fill,
sometimes those friends are all you need
to comfort you
to help you see
trust in them, and and the snow will come

~thank you friends :)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

as one

There is only one of you. And theres only one of me. But when we are together, we can be we.

so many things i could elaborate on this, the things bringing us apart, or being together and its hapiness' bliss.
all in the same thpugh is the concept of it.
together is our heart, apart is love forever missed.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Me




just a bit of a smile.


its where i want to be.
its where i am
because i've got you.
to hold my hand.
:)

Help

I want to help him, hes got a gift. But in his head is an idea i can't seem to lift. He blows me away at all the notes he can play. I dont even think he can see all that i can see in him. Sometimes late in the night i hear from him, he brings a fright. He may not see it now but someday that could take his life. oh please oh please all i need is a little of your help in helping him see.
Please dont make him just a memory.
please help me help him be what hes born to be.

Friday, September 12, 2008

RUN


Blank expression staring at the line, two years of training running through my mind. Not what i can't do, but what i can. knowing the pain is there to come, but knowing i can and will have fun. not alone with my sister there for me, running the race of liberty. Leaving just the shadow behind us, leaving the trail of you and me. coming to the finish i see, pushing towards what i believe. Hugs and cheering all alike, this ones different, this one is life. starting here and finishing there with ones beside me where cheers are near. Run. Live. Laugh. Smile. Even in that hurting mile.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

time


That old wooden broke down door, closed and shattered across an old dirt floor. Those places we would like to go back through, the door we'd like to rewind time to. Open it and step on through stopping the time where our hearts grew. The base of the door, that old dirt floor, is the same happiness we all look for. some have few broken doors some have enough for them and four more. to get it in life, to get the happiness for which we do strive, only really comes with times of you and me, not all the things and stuff shallow hearts see. my emptiness is filled with your life, the happiness and fuldillment for which i strive.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Its meant to be.





It is really akward drinking super cold water out of a coffee mug, there should be some warm hot chocolate coming out of it...it's meant to be. It seems like something is missing when there is a thunderstorm but no rain, it's like your expectations are waiting for the rain to come...it's meant to be. It is weird to see someone dancing, but hear no music, they go together why would there be just one...it's meant to be. When you think of love you think of a heart, in no way should they ever be split apart...it's meant to be.

words




Poems are but a jumble of words, but for some not but a jumble of words, but the real thing of jumbled words. For instance for some is this thunder that shakes me, for instance for some is the morning rise that wakes me. Inspiration of worlds alike, each one's poem is of a different life. Morning birds sing, time bells ring, your poem i know, makes you smile. Some are random, out of the blue, Oh but be careful, somebody's poem could just be watching you.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

music


music. the only thing so far that has let people forget their differences and just listen...

together


so much pain we go through every day, but so much gain we recieve along the way. natural disasters are destructive and harsh, but how it brings us together is like no other force. every day pain only makes us stonger. everyday pain grants us courage to love longer. the feeling you cant possibly go any farther, only pushes us to go on harder. each time growing stronger, each time loving longer. Sometimes maybe a life is taken, a person's needs gone and forsaken. but from that we dont want to go back, from that pain is somthing black. slowly growing to a happy face, slowly growing to a happy place. so much pain we go through every day, but so much gain we recieve along the way.
NO PAIN NO GAIN?

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

RED ROSES


The rain comes down and the feeling your heart is cold runs through each one's body, young and old. Washing the dirt away, but not the hurt that's there to stay. The sun rises and it sets, but i know we'll never ever forget, all the lives we've come to know, that we've lost somewhere down the road. what is the difference between guns and roses? Guns beat down leaving a need for red roses, to pass to the ones who wait for the rain to wash their dirt away. but always, the pain is there to stay. No matter how hard we try, some still have to look to the sky. Remembering the one they loved, which carelessness and hatred has torn from them. Not one not two but more than a few have yet to see the perfect day when rain runs dry, hearing no one's cry. Experiencing the light God does provide rising us above and beyond. When will guns be beaten down by red roses killing hatred and carelessness leaving peace and love alive...

angels


just like every holy place there's an angel deep within one's face, some shine their light so bright, some are dim from faces of grimm, but it's always there, the angel, the light, watching over the dark and heavy night, sometimes though, i find my angel will fly, fly fly ever so high. finding you like a dream come ture, the tears streaming down your face, heeding the angel to fill the empty space. ~ill be there, even when you are alone, you have my memories, my spirits home~

fear




Thunder crashes, Thunder rools. Last drop of hope as the death bell tolls. Not my own but someone elses, lightening strikes and i catch their eyes. A straight on look into what it's like, to fear a dark and stormy night. It's like they are saying have my possesions, have my pride, but please oh please, don't take my life. i watch and see their eyes grow wide all in just the moment that i caught their eyes. But what do i do? i stare on through...saying man, im here for you. but what does that do to help them through? in their widening eyes is when i realize there is one gift, one prize. and that is the gift of everlasting life.

I AM


I am a curious girl.
I wonder about what is ahead.
I hear friends and family reminding me I can do anything I want if I set my heart to it.
I see people who struggle, and people who make it every day.
I want to be that person who makes it.
I am a curious girl.

I pretend that everything is perfect, the way I want it to be, but
I feel if I tried that much harder; it would have been that much better.
I touch the fact that no matter what, God loves me.
I worry about letting someone down, or failing.
I cry because I know people are dying tonight.
I am a curious girl.

I understand that when I wake up in the morning, my day depends on what I make it to be.
I say not enough.
I dream about someday being a doctor.
I try to be that kind person who helps others, and
I only hope for the best.
I am a curious girl.

him




Sunrise, Sunset oh please don't ever let me forget, all the memories i have with you, and all the things that we've been through. the way you never cease to smile, raises my heart ten thousand miles, i just want my life to be, all you've helped me become and believe, and when you look at me, through a love that's ever an ocean's deep, i see the sparkle in your eyes, which makes me want to touch the skies. you'll always be in my heart so deep, and in return my own is yours to keep. sunrise, sunset, oh please dont ever let me forget, all the memories i have with you, and all the things that we've been through. i want to dance with you, i want to dance just us two, and watch the stars light up the sky, never having to say goodbye. sunrise, sunset, oh please don't ever let me forget, all the memories i have with you, and all the things that we've been through. i didn't really know where to start, now that we're two worlds apart, but i hope i've helped you see, all the things you've done for me. :)

love?


HERO